October

There are constant reminders of senior moments - the difficulty in finding a word, I can often get the letter the missing word or name begins with but can't recall the actual word I'm after.
Going upstairs and not knowing why I'm there - missing appointments despite having calendars on my phone, computer and on the wall in the kitchen. I can forget to look at all 3.
I am in constant negotiations with my body over my failing health. Trouble now is that the body holds nearly all the trump cards and I'm left trying my hardest to please him - healthy foods, exercise etc. but usually it's never good enough and the problem continues to trouble me.

July 22nd part 2

May 27

My short memory is getting worse. I have a thought or an idea but if I don't act immediately on it the thought vanishes. It's like I've lost a parking space somewhere in my brain where you can put a thought and leave it for a minute or two until there's a break in the conversation where you can recall it and enter with it into the conversation fray.

August 18th

Dreamt last nigh t that I had been diagnosed with Alzheimer's. In the dream I felt sad knowing that my life was going to go downhill from now on. It also felt unfair given that I was doing all the right things such as regular exercise and eating well. The feelings from the dream carried over into the morning

July 26th

Just back from a weeks holiday in menorca where nothing untoward happened so perhaps the minor concerns are to do with tiredness and declining energy resources. But on the other hand there is now this new drug solanezumab which is said to tackle the progress of Alzheimer's but only if it is given in the early stages so early diagnosis is essential. Therefore how does one know which symptoms are worth noting and responding to?

July 11th

A couple of days ago I fell getting onto the train. A young woman offered to help me get up but though feeling bruised I brushed her offer aside because I was feeling so embarrassed. A little later I tripped again getting onto my local bus. I'm assuming this is just another sign of ageing, becoming clumsy. I already hang onto handrails whenever I go downstairs.
What I've also noticed that when the wrong word comes out of my mouth - yesterday for example I wanted to say cackle but treacle appeared instead - that the wrong word is very close either in spelling, location, or meaning to the desired word. Therefore I might say fridge when I mean cooker as often happens or call my daughter by her mother's name. It as if the memory searches for the right word in a filing cabinet but just misses and chooses another one that is close by instead.