August 18th

Dreamt last nigh t that I had been diagnosed with Alzheimer's. In the dream I felt sad knowing that my life was going to go downhill from now on. It also felt unfair given that I was doing all the right things such as regular exercise and eating well. The feelings from the dream carried over into the morning

July 26th

Just back from a weeks holiday in menorca where nothing untoward happened so perhaps the minor concerns are to do with tiredness and declining energy resources. But on the other hand there is now this new drug solanezumab which is said to tackle the progress of Alzheimer's but only if it is given in the early stages so early diagnosis is essential. Therefore how does one know which symptoms are worth noting and responding to?

July 11th

A couple of days ago I fell getting onto the train. A young woman offered to help me get up but though feeling bruised I brushed her offer aside because I was feeling so embarrassed. A little later I tripped again getting onto my local bus. I'm assuming this is just another sign of ageing, becoming clumsy. I already hang onto handrails whenever I go downstairs.
What I've also noticed that when the wrong word comes out of my mouth - yesterday for example I wanted to say cackle but treacle appeared instead - that the wrong word is very close either in spelling, location, or meaning to the desired word. Therefore I might say fridge when I mean cooker as often happens or call my daughter by her mother's name. It as if the memory searches for the right word in a filing cabinet but just misses and chooses another one that is close by instead.

July 7th

I was walking my grand daughter up the stairs this morning and I couldn't work out which foot she was putting forward first as I was trying to teach her left and right. Then I had difficulty for a moment working out left and right with my own feet. Later in the day I told my drama group that I would be away next week when in reality it was the following week.
In a couple of weeks the person from Brains for Dementia is coming for a follow up visit. Two years ago I scored a good 49 out of 50. It will be interesting if we repeat the test what my score now will be. With this project you agree to donate your brain for research into Dementia.

June 29th

The film Still Alice didn't help. Forgetting one word in a lecture was seen as a worrying sign. Not being able to find the right word is a daily occurrence. Walking upstairs and then forgetting why you are there happens all the time. When do such senior moments become a sign if something more significant then age related memory loss? Is it when there is no longer any gaps in between the senior moments?

June 28th 2015

6 days after my 73rd birthday.
I started being worried when after a long days work I arrived back at my local railway station and hailed a taxi. The driver asked for my address and what came out of my mouth was the address for my previous home. I knew it was wrong but couldn't think what the right address was. In the end to make sure I had to check it out on a business card in my wallet.